1 week and all is well

So before the La Leche League comes after me, I’d like to report that breastfeeding is going much better. Yeah, I think we’ve got it. WHEW. I’d like to thank the following for making it all possible:

First and foremost, Kaitlyn, for hanging in there!

Next, Nate, for dealing with my emotional rantings with compassion and support.

I’d like to thank my pump. Wow we’ve been through a lot. The whirring of your motor shall always bring back fond, okay, let’s not lie, far from fond memories. But what would I have done without you. After I had Jenna, I was desperate, and made Nate run to Walmart to buy a pump, and he bought the cheapest one there and it’s lasted 4 babies, AMAZING!

I’d also like to thank Lansinoh for all your quality products. I’ll refrain from naming them specifically-- not sure the audience wants to hear. Then again, I’ve said enough about breastfeeding it probably doesn’t matter at this point.

Next I’d like to thank Depil Silk, the Shark steam mop, Wen hair care, and Zumba with Beto Perez for keeping me entertained in those wee hours of the morning. Truly, your words comforted my soul and kept my hope alive that I would live to see the sunrise. (okay now I’m just being dramatic. Still infomercials are the best, aren’t they?)

Thank you thank you to the nurse at the hospital who gave me tons of liquid form Similac, hallelujah.

OKAY OKAY I am done. No more talk of nursing, i promise.

We’re doing great around here, and GUESS WHAT on a totally different note, take a look at this!


Two zucchini and one cherry tomato! Yes, half my plants died, but the other half of my garden lived and is GROWING stuff!!!! It feels so fulfilling! Now I need to learn how to make zucchini.

So here is me trying to take a picture of all my kids.





Seems like I was just doing this with my 3 kids... Logan's like a month old here. Crazy huh.


Anyway, Kaitlyn was getting a little fed up at the end.







Fun, fun!

New Baby!! And an epic!!

Little baby Kaitlyn Lisa Gomm is here! She was born Friday, July 23, at 7:04 p.m. and weighed 7 lbs 15 oz, 20 inches long. I love her!!!



Sooo what happened, well let me tell you, you might feel like you were there. I had another doctor’s appointment on Friday. Then I was going to be induced Monday. So Friday morning I was cleaning out my kids’ closets, trying to get organized and getting all the baby clothes put in place. I was working so hard I was running late to my appointment, and I left in a huge rush, like my hair was completely wet. SOOOO anyway the doctor asked me if I had been feeling any contractions, and I told him no, not really, nothing outside the normal little ones anyway. So when he told me I was dilated to a 4, maybe even 5, I was like WOW! That’s cool! He exclaimed, “Are you SURE you haven’t felt any contractions?” THEN he said, “So, do you have any plans today? Cause I really think you should head straight to the hospital.” I was like, “Really??? Right now??!” He told me maybe I wouldn’t be staying, but he wanted them to hook me up to a fetal monitor “just to see” what my contractions were doing. He said since I was Group B strep positive they'd have to make sure those antibiotics were in me well before giving birth, so he just wanted to see basically if I was in labor before sending me home for the weekend.

I was SO taken off guard. I was thinking--- uh, noooo do you know all the things I need to get done over the weekend?! And you’re telling me I could be in labor and have the baby today??? I got all nervous and shaky. I called Nate and told him we were going to the hospital!

We got there at 1:30 and they hooked me up. I was honestly a little skeptical. Sure I was getting little contractions, but I did not think I was in labor, I had felt that pain before. Then... we weren’t there very long before those contractions started to get worse and closer together. At 2:15 I noted getting the first contraction that REALLY, REALLY hurt. I kept thinking--- are you KIDDING me? Like, what are the odds?? My doctor is super intuitive or just plain magic, cause I felt TOTALLY fine all morning, and then we get to the hospital and Ta-DA I am getting labor pains??? I think baby knew I was at the hospital and she said, “well, ALL RIGHT, SINCE we’re HERE...”

Well my doctor called the hospital to see what I was doing and the nurse told him I was definitely in a regular labor pattern and they better get an IV in me. I just couldn’t believe it. I was like, I’m gonna have the BABY! WHAT THE HECK! You see, with my other babies, the doctor always did something to help things along. With Jenna, Carter AND Logan my doctor stripped my membranes the day before, and then I still needed Pitocin to get things really going. With Jenna my water broke on its own in the hospital, but with Carter and Logan they had to break my water. With little Kaitlyn, I didn’t have any Pitocin, and when the nurse checked me later she’s like “Oh it looks like your water broke!” I’m just saying. If I were home my water would have broken there, really???

So my doctor showed up and checked me and I was at a 6. The pain was getting BADDDD and I knew it was time for that epidural. Then it only worked on half my body so the right side of my uterus and back were killing me during contractions, I was like somebody better fix this! ! They got it fixed and life was gooood. Then I was at a 9, and the doctor just stalled cause they wanted 2 bags of penicillin in me before I delivered. I was feeling pretty drugged and light-headed, and then felt like a beached whale from the epidural-- what is it about being numb that makes you feel twice your size?? So when it came time to push I was sooo ready and it didn’t take long at all, just a few pushes, maybe 5 minutes, and out she came with a head full of black hair! The doctor put her right on my lap and Nate cut the cord and there is just nothing like that moment. It's a miracle.

Then my doctor gave me a little lesson about placentas cause I really wanted to know what it looked like, and I thought with my 4th baby it was time. Pretty cool. :)

I’m so thankful for my new little girl. She melts my heart and I love falling in love with my babies. Recovery has been pretty good. Great, actually, it's the first time I've come home without any meds. It’s the breastfeeding that is absolutely killing me.... okay are you ready for this venting?

Breastfeeding: How so many people still breastfeed after the first week is beyond me. I mean I have nursed all my babies so somehow I have made it before (that’s what I keep telling myself) but there is nothing else that makes me SO emotionally drained and stressed and frustrated and crazy as learning how to nurse and helping a baby learn to do the same. This is my FOURTH and here I am again crying my eyes out in the middle of the night because nursing is NOT going well!!!! First of all, it KILLS!!!!!!! It’s like, “okay are you ready to stab your eyeballs with forks.” And I was SO proud cause Kaitlyn learned how to latch on right away (unlike Logan who took a week) but then her jaws are like IRON CLAWS. But I was like oh well at least she knows how to LATCH. Then my milk came in and as of yesterday she suddenly forgot how, and here we are, best buddies with my pump again while I cry and she cries cause she WON’T LATCH ON. Then I’m like okay bring on the pain just EAT!!!!!! But since she was on bili-lites for jaundice, the doctor told me to supplement with formula so at least I can do that and not feel guilty. Ahhhh breastfeeding is so precious isn’t it. And boy I love feeling 10 lbs of weight on my chest, it's great. SIGH I am just venting, I KNOW it gets SO much easier but I honestly don’t know if I am going to make it!!!!! I would never ever knock anybody for going with the bottle because until you try it you just DON’T KNOW HOW HARD IT IS!!!! It’s not just me, right?! Am I just being a baby??

But Kaitlyn gets to be off the bili-bed now, yay! And she had two 4-hour stretches of sleep last night, it was like heaven!

Speaking of heaven, yeah the nursing is a par-tay, but honestly having a newborn is like heaven. I just love her to pieces. I already feel like she is just part of the family and completes us. (so are we done? you are asking i am just not saying.) She is so sweet. And my kids have been SO excited to have a baby sister. Seeing them see her for the first time at the hospital was awesome. Jenna is the perfect older sister and is just SO sweet and mature. Carter acted sorta weird at the hospital, he started talking like a baby, and he wouldn’t come hug me at first... but he is very sweet around Kaitlyn. Logan doesn’t understand much but he strokes the baby like she’s a kitty, and today he kept touching his forehead to hers, very gently. You can tell my kids want attention (cause they act like wild animals when people come over) but thank goodness for Nate who is home this week. But mostly they are very sweet around Kaitlyn. I'm sure I'll keep you updated on life with 4 kids 4 and under. Can't wait to see what craziness ensues.

Here she is!

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to

So have you ever had one of those days where the stupidest things make you emotional????? Things like trying to get pizza dough to spread on a cookie sheet and it keeps getting holes in it and I am like, come on this is the same recipe I always use why is there not enough DOUGH to cover the pan!!! It was making me so mad. This was yesterday. And then I went to get the pizza sauce and guess what, it was MOLDY. I was SOOOO MAD! I didn’t even have any spaghetti sauce or tomato paste to make any. Nate told me he’d like it even without pizza sauce so I’m like all right whatever, so I threw cheese and pepperoni on there and you know what it wasn’t bad. Still. I was almost in tears.

Probably cause earlier in the day I took the kids grocery shopping and hearing “I want this” and “Can we get this” and “But why can’t we buy that” the whole time about drove me insane. I swear I used to think my kids were SO awesome running errands with me, in fact it was kind of fun… yeah right, I don’t know when they got so greedy but now they have like sticky fingers walking down the aisles, “I WANT I WANT I WANT” I was getting so impatient with them and I didn’t care who knew it. Yeah. In fact the whole day I felt like they were out of control, and I was out of control. Some days of motherhood are so dang warm and fuzzy and then some are like YESTERDAY where I am saying “Quit whining at me!!” 8 billion times. And the house is trashed and all I want is a clean place to relax and there isn’t one? Yeah those days make me feel like crying all day too.

And then, while I love transcribing I am SO SLOW right now and of course I expected that but I can’t wait until the day I am fast and actually making real money. Argh and I hate asking for help, but it’s a new job, yeah I have a ton of questions and get confused and then I feel stupid. I hate feeling STUPID!

I really feel like I’m a person who has a handle on things most of the time but just so you all know some days I feel like a CRAZY PERSON! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! And I am like I. JUST. CAN’T. DO. IT.

My hormones are like super out of whack, and hello, I haven’t even had the baby yet.

I had a doctor’s appointment on Monday and I’m dilated to a 2 or 3 and he asked me about being induced, and while yes I want to sit and wait for the excitement to surprise me, it just slipped out of my mouth: “YEAH!” :) boy it’s too tempting. Then he looked at his calendar and said, “Okay how about next Monday” I’m like “Next Monday?” He’s like “Yeah.” WOW AND THEN I started feeling like I was gonna cry. Cause I’m scared about giving birth? Even the 4th time?? Cause I’m scared to add a 4th little human being to our family?? Cause I am SOOO excited to add another little human being to our family?? to love and hold?? Cause I’m sooo not ready? Cause I am sooooo READY? Yes. All of those things. I had to hold back tears as I walked out of the office cause DUDE IT’S REAL the baby is COMING!!!! I can’t even believe it. I know what some of you are thinking, sheesh she really should be used to this by now… yeah ha ha, but no every baby has been equally exciting and nerve-wracking, really. Somehow I adapted to 3, will I adapt to 4???? Can I be a good mother to 4 kids and not lose my mind???

And maybe that’s why I’m super emotional this week. Okay catch ya later!

For lack of a better title: More pictures

So in between me starting my job as a medical transcriptionist and all the stress and fear that comes with starting a new job... which I'll write all about SOON! we do find time to have fun!

We went to Hill Aerospace Museum. It was WAY COOL!!! And free! The kids LOVED it. Trust me, between pictures they were giddy and could not stop exclaiming over the huge planes.







We went swimming with some friends. The kids had a ball! Jenna's always loved water and Carter has always been a little afraid of it. He was brave though and jumped in a few times. And LOGAN oh my gosh we were there for 2 minutes and Logan was right there sitting at the edge of the pool about to take a dip. I about had a heart attack. He is quite the water baby, he jumped in several times too (into our arms.)





Carter put his BYU sweatpants on yesterday. Then he told me, "Mom, these are my Jasmine pants." I about died.


Here he is slathering Logan's mouth with Lip Smackers.



So up until now Logan would just play while we said family prayers. Then the other night he came up and joined us and has ever since. I think it's adorable.




Do you like how half of the paint is gone on the coffee table. One too many tea parties. Someday I will have nice furniture... maybe!

4th of July weekend!

What can I say, I LOVE FOOD and I LOVE FIREWORKS!!!! Is it weird that I love the smell of fireworks too? Don't worry... I don't want to eat them... just dirt and rocks and sand... (yeah that's still going on. The craving, not the eating.) Anyway, here are some pictures. Hurray!












We also went GOLFING with some friends. I'm not good anyway... but this time I had my tummy to blame it on. I actually really had fun though. Maybe I am coming around to golfing. Of course half the fun is riding in the golf cart. I just pretend i'm at Lagoon. Anyway.





Yay! Happy birthday America!