Spilled cereal (AGAIN!) and spilled thoughts

SO GUESS WHAT scene I came upon yesterday??????

I was like AGAIN?!!!!!!  ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!!!!  Like, this must be the Year Of The Cereal or something.  A couple times, FINE, probably normal, in fact I remember at least 2 incidents with Jenna and Carter when they were younger.

But Logan is doing this like every other day it seems and I can't take it anymore!!!!!  I don't know why he does not learn!  I don't know why he sneaks cereal from the pantry, I promise I am not starving him!  I don't know why he can't just leave the cereal in the kitchen, why bring it into the bathroom or living room or hallway?  These are the great mysteries of life.  Anyway I wasn't about to waste a whole bag so we scooped as much as we could back in the bag (a little cereal off the floor never hurt anybody... I just kept it to myself when Nate had a bowl of that cereal later that night) and then I made Logan vaccuum it up.

Kaitlyn is starting to make a name for herself as Logan's sidekick. 

Sigh.  YES it has crossed my mind that if I quit buying sugary cereals well then maybe Logan wouldn't be so apt to hunt down the FiberOne.  I know.  I know.  It seems quite simple.  My CEREAL OBSESSION is bad for my kids I know!  I should just hide it and have my secret stash of Golden Grahams and give my kids Multi-Grain Cheerios I KNOW!

Anyway.  SO I was thinking.

I promise that while it seems like I am glorifying the kids' shenanigans on my blog and that I laugh whenever they get into mischief, it is NOT TRUE.  I am NOT that good.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE what one of my favorite blogger's wrote on her blog, right HERE, http://www.71toes.com/p/disclaimer.html.  It is her disclaimer, that while she loves to write about her family and loves being a mother and is so thankful for her life, the last thing she wants to do is depress people.  I totally know blogs can be depressing, I mean, look at Elder Uchtdorf's AWESOME TALK from the Relief Society General Meeting, where he talks about how us women tend to compare ourselves to other women and then feel bad.  I really don't know what people think about me, but I guess I wanted to say I am being as real as I can and it makes me laugh and somewhat distressed when people have told me that they cannot picture me yelling at my kids.  Not sure what it is that portrays that, but I would just like to clarify in big bold letters, I YELL AT MY KIDS ALL THE TIME!!!!!  Believe me.  It is one thing I am very good at.  YES I try to find humor in my crazy life and motherhood truly makes me happy, but what you don't see when I post spilled cereal pictures like this is me yelling at Logan and hyperventilating cause I canNOT believe he did that again.  Yes I grab my camera to take pictures, but because I know it will be funny later AND for proof that I survived this moment.  Motherhood is great, but face it, it's hard sometimes!!!  I am not afraid to admit that I have emotional freak outs on a regular basis and then I move on until things build up and build up and I have another one.  But despite the hard times, the frequent "mommy guilt," the feelings of being inadequate and not enough.... I. Am. Grateful.  And one reason I love to blog, besides documenting the history of my family, is because it is kind of a coping mechanism.  I wrote in a journal every single day from age 8 to when I got married (then it got more sporadic!) and I found in writing my thoughts it actually helped me sort them out and put things into perspective.  This is what blogging sort of does for me too.  I like to share my joy in life, but also the reality that finding joy is sometimes difficult.  But I like laughing better than crying, you know?  Finding the positive, not the negative.  Of course we have some dirty laundry around here but as for airing it out on the internet?  I am not sure about that.  But if you stop by my house and listen at the front door you are sure to hear some... probably something about cereal!!!!!!!!